Why?

I really feel like breaking right now. Nothing is going well for me. I thought things were looking up. I was talking to that pretty and really cool chick on that website, I had two job interviews from the same place. And now I have 2 weeks consecutive with no pay because my manager is a fucking cunt and suspended me because my pants had a small white stripe down the side of them. So I will have NO money to pay my bills on my next check it seems. I haven't heard from that chick for like 2 weeks. Heard nothing from that job. I just want to go walk of the edge of the world at this point. Not to mention I'm going to need to have my wisdom teeth taken out. THAT'LL be great. I'm just so sick of NOTHING going right for me. Ever.


ADDENDUM: I have realized that I have nothing to show for either my professional or my love life. I have no degree, I'm several years behind on any I SHOULD have, and I have never had a good relationship nor will I because I am repulsive, uninteresting, and terrible at talking to women.

A Great Idea

So I figured that since I haven't had an actual post about my life recently, I'd enlighten you all after a 2am Los run when I have an incredibly long day tomorrow. I'm so awesome!

So some potential good news for once.

I've actually talked with someone on that website I signed up for. So far as I can tell she isn't a robot, nor a man, so that's pretty good. Been messaging back and forth for about 2 weeks now, she seems pretty amazing and really digs my style, so who knows how that'll turn out. Fingers crossed though.

I also applied for a new job recently at Games Workshop. I really hope I get the job there because I just cannot stand it at Subway anymore. The pay would be better at GW, I'd probably get more hours than I do now, and I'd be surrounded by great people and get to do something I love.

That's really all that's happened. I lead a thrilling life I know.

Another bonus is that I get to see my friend today who's back home from Texas visiting the girl he just got back together with. I'm really happy for them. Something just wasn't right with the universe when they were broken up.

I suppose that's all for now. I'll probably go play some more Fallout 3 now till the wee hours in the morning and hate myself later...

A cold and wintry night

On a Winter night in the countryside, a small cottage sits wrapped in a blanket of freshly fallen snow and sparsely fenced by lightly dusted evergreens. Inside a man sits by the hearth quietly reading a tale of love and loss whilst the logs in the fireplace quietly mumble to each other in the language of flame. Snug in a sweater from days of his past he rests his weary head against the soft, broken-in leather of an old, familiar easy chair. At his feet, a dog; at his side, a liquid confidant the color of amber; and on his lips, a sigh for things once loved and forever lost. Here he rests with his book of woe and wonderment until the night recedes and the dawn draws near. Closing his book, draining his glass, and waking his pet he wanders off to await the embrace of his dreams.